oh mud

i'm feeling so depressed these days.

i seriously dunno what i'm doing anymore

i feel like letting go. forever

but u wun forgive me if i do, right? i noe u wun forgive me for letting go.

but i noe i cant. i shouldn. i have left so much "unfinished business". i need to complete them all.
but what should i do? i reallie have no idea

my heart has nvr been light for many many days now. i havent been able to sleep well too. i wish for the day to come, when all these is over, when i can sink my head into a pillow without worries, and just sleep. and sleep. last time i THOUGHT i had eyebags. but now when i look at myself in the mirror, what were "eyebags" in the past are now downgrowths of stuff. its extending downwards.

oh well

sqdmates, jiayou jiayou for pitch tmr. i noe u can do it. we'll support u mentally from the tent. like we always have. forever.

jiayou.

mud...

i'm so sorrie

i knew smth was wrong today...u weren't ur lovely, sweet cheerful self

why didn i spend more time with u to talk to u?

i hate myself

u will nvr suck...u must believe in urself. in ur family ure the most hardworking, ure smart. how could u say u sucked? no matter what, u noe there'll always be me for u. no matter what happens, u can always talk to me. for i will always be here.

ur last post made me cry...it was so sad! plus i was reading it with the sad sad music in the background...

get a reallie good rest tonight, k? tmr we have the whole day to talk. on the bus, and stuff. we can take a walk ard interchange just to chat.

love u lots.

have a good sleep and sweet dreams tonight

love,
torters.

those who commit evil shall perish in evil. she will get her just desserts.
love u. hj is a super darling too.

Hey darling mr.

I'm so tired too.
Hj is such a dear.

Suddenly didn't feel like myself today. I know i probably sucked today. I feel so rotten since first thing in the morning. Everything is happening today I'm so totally messed up with the schedules, and kena scolded by some idiots from my class cos I wasn't there to rush them to the LT for timed trial. Like, tifen and I weren't there? They didn't wan to listen to enqi what. Their problem. Even my dear seat partner eq noticed and she said "ni mei shi ba". And she kept making me laugh cos throughout today I hardly spoke to her. I'm so glad for these classmates.
I love eq and xx and smt and you. You all make me laugh from my heart.
I tell you things, you are happy for me.
I tell some other nice pple, like mt, mt, my classmates enqi xx, they are happy for me too.
Tell others. ........
Forget it.
Some things are too personal, only you would understand.

My midyears are like so close. Then there's prelims. Next week getting back chinese o's results I know it's not going to be an A1 but I still want my A1.
From the looks MrsSee gave me I know I failed my am retest too.
And I don't want to go Hwa Chong because I know I won't make it there anyway, I really want to go somewhere where I will meet new ppl and have a new life and forget all this. But.
That day I was talking to xx she told me her dream sch is hwachong.
PERFECT SCORE. Cheers.
And both of us gave the same sardonic smile.

I don't want to lose to my brothers. I suck already. I'm always worst than them in everything. I suck.

We had to pick from a biscuit tin today. I AM an unlucky person. I think we're the last to pitch. =(

le odio.

--
This masterpiece is a facade. An act,
take off your mask unless you're afraid. Who?
You linger amongst the anonymous ghosts
in the background. The darkness in you.
You'll only scare yourself.

You can never run, never hide,
The cloak is no magic, it's screaming your name
But we won't give up without a fight
It's our turn now, it's our game
Wipe that smirk off your hollow face
It's no longer your saving grace
Brace yourself, the storm is coming.
Rising, over even the highest countertides,
it's you who the waves will devour,
you who haunts and never contributes.
--
Written in two minutes. Not bad.
And the title is _________.

Lala. Don't worry abt it. A lawnmower may cut the grass dutifully but sometimes deliberately, it sucks other things in too. But in the end, it will slowly choke itself to death.
=)
Bye.

Hey darling mr.

I'm so tired too.
Hj is such a dear.

Suddenly didn't feel like myself today. I know i probably sucked today. I feel so rotten since first thing in the morning. Everything is happening today I'm so totally messed up with the schedules, and kena scolded by some idiots from my class cos I wasn't there to rush them to the LT for timed trial. Like, tifen and I weren't there? They didn't wan to listen to enqi what. Their problem. Even my dear seat partner eq noticed and she said "ni mei shi ba". And she kept making me laugh cos throughout today I hardly spoke to her. I'm so glad for these classmates.
I love eq and xx and smt and you. You all make me laugh from my heart.
I tell you things, you are happy for me.
I tell some other nice pple, like mt, mt, my classmates enqi xx, they are happy for me too.
Tell others. ........
Forget it.
Some things are too personal, only you would understand.

My midyears are like so close. Then there's prelims. Next week getting back chinese o's results I know it's not going to be an A1 but I still want my A1.
From the looks MrsSee gave me I know I failed my am retest too.
And I don't want to go Hwa Chong because I know I won't make it there anyway, I really want to go somewhere where I will meet new ppl and have a new life and forget all this. But.
That day I was talking to xx she told me her dream sch is hwachong.
PERFECT SCORE. Cheers.
And both of us gave the same sardonic smile.

I don't want to lose to my brothers. I suck already. I'm always worst than them in everything. I suck.

We had to pick from a biscuit tin today. I AM an unlucky person. I think we're the last to pitch. =(

le odio.

--
This masterpiece is a facade. An act,
take off your mask unless you're afraid. Who?
You linger amongst the anonymous ghosts
in the background. The darkness in you.
You'll only scare yourself.

You can never run, never hide,
The cloak is no magic, it's screaming your name
But we won't give up without a fight
It's our turn now, it's our game
Wipe that smirk off your hollow face
It's no longer your saving grace
Brace yourself, the storm is coming.
Rising, over even the highest countertides,
it's you who the waves will devour,
you who haunts and never contributes.
--
Written in two minutes. Not bad.
And the title is _________.

Lala. Don't worry abt it. A lawnmower may cut the grass dutifully but sometimes deliberately, it sucks other things in too. But in the end, it will slowly choke itself to death.
=)
Bye.