oh mud

i'm feeling so depressed these days.

i seriously dunno what i'm doing anymore

i feel like letting go. forever

but u wun forgive me if i do, right? i noe u wun forgive me for letting go.

but i noe i cant. i shouldn. i have left so much "unfinished business". i need to complete them all.
but what should i do? i reallie have no idea

my heart has nvr been light for many many days now. i havent been able to sleep well too. i wish for the day to come, when all these is over, when i can sink my head into a pillow without worries, and just sleep. and sleep. last time i THOUGHT i had eyebags. but now when i look at myself in the mirror, what were "eyebags" in the past are now downgrowths of stuff. its extending downwards.

oh well

sqdmates, jiayou jiayou for pitch tmr. i noe u can do it. we'll support u mentally from the tent. like we always have. forever.

jiayou.